Tuesday, March 31, 2009

to go there...

It seems as if everyone's blogging these days. Some people blog about coupons, some about trips to the park, some about babies and some even newer babies. Today I am choosing to blog about a place that not many women dare to go...I am going there...talking about the scales, baby! Besides my camera is still not back, so no new cute pics to blog about...just a good ole ramble, whittystyle.

A few weeks ago I noticed that my wedding rings were feeling a bit tighter than they should, some of my favorite pants...same story. I just kind of shrugged it off to well, that's weird but didn't give it much thought. Matt and I actually had a brief conversation this weekend about me being "healthy" or really lack their of. Same thought, hmm, that was nice, he's sweet to care, etc. but really kept on daydreaming.

Then I went to Old Navy yesterday to spend some birthday $ on some new spring duds. I gathered some finds and headed back to the dressing room, and what I saw when I looked in the mirror (undone, if you will) took me by shock...I...have...gained...weight. I mean I look at myself briefly in the mirror every morning but we are out the door by 7am everyday, so by briefly I mean briefly. Maybe it was just those horrific florescent lights above that seemed to mock me a bit. What made it even more lovely was that I had to politely ask the "attendee" to go and retrieve the next size up capris for me.

So then I started to do some analyzing, what have I been doing differently? Nothing really, I mean I love food, I think about it a lot in fact last night (monday) I was already planning what I would pick out to eat at the restaurant I had picked out for our date night (on wednesday.) Hmm, I thought, well I have been sitting a lot (supervising my student teacher,) I did have a baby (2 years ago.) I did exercise...two months ago. I did buy a really cool water bottle...to only add those powdery mixes to it every morning. And on and on and on, don't get me wrong, I'm still basically the same old Whit, just with a little more junk in my trunk, if you know what I mean.

I had a bit of time to myself last night in the car on the way home from a baby shower in Raleigh. I realized some stuff... I am 30...my body is 30. I can't just sit and eat and enjoy and think all will be well. It's gonna take some work to keep fitting in my size __ capris. I don't have a plan, I don't really do well with rules but I am hoping to make a few changes...to exercise ( I got a sweet bike for my b-day and I actually walked a mile on the playground today, ) to eat less, to drink more...un-flavored water, to eat better, no more cookies before bedtime...to...simply...be...me...a healthy me.

Sorry this has been long, it's been quite therapeutic for me. I'd love any tips, suggestions, or maybe just an Amen, sister!

6 comments:

Laura said...

First, you're not fat- at all!
Second, women's weight goes up and down all the time. It's ok to be concerened and willing to do something about it but you still need to eat the things you want. Like if you want a cookie before bed, eat one- just not 3. Courtney told me that if you try to stay away from the things you love, it's harder to get through to your goal. I believe in you and to me, you're just fine the way you are :)

Tim and Terre said...
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Tim and Terre said...

I recently had the same revelation about myself. Glad you went there - I needed the reminder!

Emily said...

Hey, I'm with you, Whit. I desperately need to be making a few changes in my lifestyle as well.

Anonymous said...

Hey Whit! Haley here - been there done that (except not 30 until July!)! I can say that after almost 5 years of being a member of Weight Watchers, and now being a lifetime member and maintaining my weight, I STILL have to write down what I eat to keep myself accountable. This also helps me to see where I can improve the next week when I don't have a "great" week on the scale. I can look back and see when I ate, what I ate, etc. It may seem tedious or inconvenient to write a food journal, but it has helped me to have success in this department! I wish you the best and know that you look great in all your pics, so don't stress about it!

melissa said...

great writing! i love how you're wanting to be more healthy. i'm with you girl!